2018 : Stop With the Shenanigans

” Don’t allow the inevitable presence of clouds to dismiss the fact that the sun still shines even on the darkest of days ” – z.o.o

” It’s a bad day not a bad life ”

” May the flowers remind us why the rain was so necessary “

From the three months of January with the internet conceding to natural selection by eating Tide Pods [ speaking of pods can we talk about the air pods bafoonery ] to the tragedies of valentines day [
Stoneman Douglas High School,, r.i.p. ] to bring light to the ever growing gun control issue and then the release of our ever beloved ‘ Black Panther ‘ 2018 was already off to an unsure start, but even then 2018 was definitely an interesting year. As we go into the new year let us reflect.

Where to even begin. Leave it in the dustbin!

1.Wakanda forever

An African wears traditional clothes : wakanda forever. Eats Jollof Rice : wakanda forever. Listens to Afrobeats : wakanda forever. Gets married : wakanda forever. Opens mouth : wakanda forever. Are you cursed, what is your problem. It’s just funny because 1. when we call for support for things of actual relevance involving africans yall wanna turn a blind eye. Did you know that you can purchase a black man in Libya for $400. 400 DOLLARS. PEOPLE are being SOLD for $400. Black people are being exploited again for manual labor, the modern day slave trade is occurring right under our noses but all you lot can think of is wakanda forever. Rubbish. Ever wonder how the holocaust got that far before people intervened, well THIS is why. Were focusing on the wrong things.

2. Stupidity

Can we just leave stupid people in our last bi-weekly neighborhood trash pick up of 2018. For example, I don’t understand why MUSLIMS are asking me if i’m Muslim, when i’m clearly wearing a hijab. Do you want me to deny it and say ” no it’s a durang “, does that satisfy your euro centrism. I think this year sets a record for the amount of stupid things i’ve heard in my life time. In 2019 read more, i’m sure you’ll retain something to help with your serious problem of stupidity.

3. Saying the N word if you’re not black

One of the most confusing things about this year was the fact that some people didn’t leave this in whatever year it started. Can someone please explain to me WHY little Jonny and Ahmed, the full blooded panistani with 0.0000000000% of african in him, mans hasn’t ever step foot in Africa not even to connect a flight, but all of a sudden he thinks it’s okay to start every sentence with that word. And then you have the ones that don’t have enough chest to say it whenever you’re around but you open snapchat and their snap is infested with it. Every chat screenshot. Interesting. The reason my block list is so long. We’re not even going to get into how you’re a coward who needs to work on maintaining your energy. Oh and don’t let me forget those who like to say ” don’t worry we use the white version” “wigga”.

4.Wave zoom in’s.

IN 2019 I DON’T WANT TO SEE THE OCEAN YOU’VE CREATED ON YOUR HEAD. I have spent too much time this year hearing the wisk of your brush against your scalp. I said scalp because most of you lot don’t even have hair to be brushing. Are you brushing your scalp. Anyways that’s none of my business, but NO MORE ZOOM OUTS.

5. Fake ” cHEak oN yOuR fRiEnDs “

Who are you trying to fool. There’s nothing wrong with retweeting it as a reminder to yourself. But why do people take the time out of their day to tweet things like “check up on your friends, you never know what someones going through” but sis still hasn’t opened her snaps from last month before we even go on to talk about ” check up on your friends “. When was the last time you asked, called, or texted your so called friend a simple “how are you”, why must it always be kakaka hahaha. I know a phone works both ways but if you’re truly concerned you WILL reach out first instead of tweeting ” cHEaK oN YouR fRIeNdS ” and then proceeding to wait til someone hits you up first. It doesn’t work like that.

6. Crossing the ocean for those that wont even jump in a puddle for you.

I really hope you spent this year exploring yourself in all it’s glory. If not it’s never too late. You’re an amazing contribution to the world and do have a purpose in the world. Please. And i’m begging when i say this. PLEASE value yourself more. I believe it’s very important to match energy. Don’t break your back or spend ages crying over people or situations that don’t even pay you mind. You shouldn’t be begging people to f with you how you f with them. You shouldn’t have to keep telling them the same things and expect them to change. Stop making excuses for them. In this new year i hope that you comprehend that : it’s not your job to teach others how to love or treat you. Just like how you treat others how you want to be treated it’s often forgotten that first and foremost you need to treat yourself how you want others to treat you. Know your worth and then add tax with shipping and handling. I know that you may just want to be loved or somewhat appreciated but if you allow the first person that seems to barely give you attention to pay half price for your high quality existence then all the energy you attract will be half assed. Like drake said ” know yourself “. Know your value, your worth.You’re worth so much more than some coons barely there effort. Don’t cross oceans for people that won’t even jump in a puddle for you. Period, no tampon.

Take Away

Tommorow, January 1st 2019 is your new beginning. I know it sounds cheesy, but this truly is your chance to begin again. I know it’s literally just a new calendar change but by the end of the year when you reflect on the year you’ll realize it’s more than that.

It’s time to dream again, try again, love again, fight again, and win the battle again. You’ve made it this far, why give up now.

Lets all do better in this new year, together.

That is all. Know your worth, add tax with shipping and handling. Be consistent and shine like the Queens and Kings you are.

Goodbye 2018, thanks love. Hello 2019 ❤

Yours truly,

Olamide ♥

You Think I Don’t Know

A spoken word in response to ” #AllLivesMatter ” and ” The hate U give ” 10.7.18

Stop trying to make everything about you.

“Hispanics are being deported everyday as we speak”

You think i don’t know?

A child in syria worries if they will ever return to school, see their family again, or simply eat a meal tonight

You think i don’t know

Whenever we attempt to bring attention to any of the never ending problems the world has suddenly it’s transformed into a competition of who’s struggling more. Black lives matter has been turned into another charcoal Jim Crow newspaper comic, another way for our oppressors to mock and belittle us,  everyday a black child dies if not from a gunshot then from starvation. All lives matter. A joke. You only think all lives matter when YOU are being discriminated against. Nabra Hassanen, a 17 year old muslim girl, beaten to death with a baseball bat in the summer of 2017. Jakelin Caal Maquin, 7 year old migrant caravan child that, died of dehydration in a detention camp December of 2018. Where you at #AllLivesMatter. Notice the pattern? Whenever there’s an actual problem, you’re nowhere to be seen… but i thought all lives matter. When attention is brought to the systematic oppression and murder of Black people it’s suddenly : we think we’re more important or the ONLY problem.

Stop being selfish. When awareness is brought to the mistreatment of a minority that isn’t black we offer support, respect and don’t constantly try to cover your struggles with the pain of our own. Why can’t we receive the same amount of respect. “ What about us, we’re struggling too “ okay but we’re NOT TALKING ABOUT YOU. Were talking about the struggles of being black in america. If you’re pulled over don’t argue. Play nice. Or else you leave behind your wife and three kids. Not only do you have to worry about dying in your neighborhood but now you have to take precautions in school. Watch what you say or else you’ll come off as ghetto or uncivilized. Control your Afro for it’s luscious curls in all it’s glory may be too much for them to handle. They say it’s “ blocking their view from the board ” so they can’t ” write notes ” when in reality that notebook has been empty since day it was purchased. Don’t raise your voice or speak up when the idiot next to you keeps running his mouth in order to avoid being labeled off as the “angry black girl”. To my women with the utmost respect, intellect,, we often forget and neglect intuition can see through illusive intent,,, if i spoke like that you either 1. tell me to stop trying to sound white, 2. question why i talk like that,or 3. simply cannot even begin to comprehend what exactly i’m saying.

If i speak otherwise you call me ghetto or uncivilized. What exactly do you want from me.

But in all honesty even if i knew i doubt i could measure up to your superficial perception of how i should or shouldn’t act.

*insert cough* sorry, i just couldn’t help choking on your bs.

So little boy or little girl, yes, i just went there. For someone with the age of those i respect and the knowledge of time you don’t seem to possess much more than that. You have simply existed. I have met people decades younger than you with the knowledge someone of your age is supposed to have gained. Tragic.

You love saying that word and act like we’re taking away your own child when we request you to stop integrating it as a part of your vocabulary. You refuse to take the responsibility that comes with that word, yet still continue to use it. You fail to realize the meaning and origin of that word, yet you still continue to use it. You don’t have to worry about your loved ones making it home safely every night, yet you still continue to use that word. You don’t have to come to terms with the fact that the only time you see someone that looks like you on Television it’s either their mug shot or funeral picture, yet you still continue to use that word. But who am i to dictate what comes out of your mouth, it’s just a word am i right.

Stop trying to make everything about you. You think we don’t know you’re struggling, but why does everything have to be about you. We have been struggling before you even came here. We refuse to be silenced. We refuse to allow you to paint over centuries of pain that was supposed to have “ended” around our grandparents time. Try as you might, but we will never stop raising awareness. If you are not going to support our cause eat your fruit and drink your water since you seem to need something in your mouth.

Thank you.

I am she